Dysfunctionally_Functioning

So its day 5 and I am really sluggish. Seeing as though this isnt my first fast I knew it would be coming. I havent really eaten or drinking anything today which is prolly y I have this I feel like Im preggers tiredness going on. I missed out on my jog and blading again today just not up to it. My dad showed up this morning around 2. His girl called to say that he made it in but she hadn't spoken with him. I was like ok. I mean she did call me 97 times yesterday. Then my grampa and aunt blowing up the line this morning so I guess I could have been a lil more excited.Or at least happy he made it and is ok. Yeah...noo. He gets on the phone with the story in truw crackhead fashion. It went a lil something like this: The water pump went out on my car and my celly died and I didnt have the car charger so I had no way of getting in touch with anyone. ALmost believable. But the truth is I know him and or I should say I know his habits. I know the actions that he takes in certain situations. Somethings are just predictable. See I realize that this is what happens whenever I start to halfway liking him and letting him in on my life. HE is partially the reason why Im from Missouri. you know the show me state. Everyone that comes in my life pretty much have to prove themselves in other words show me. I take nothing at face value. Maybe I am being a hypocrite. I just wrote to my BFF and told her she shouldnt judge her present relationship based off of past ones. Hmmmmmm. Nope this my daddy Im talking about and I say I am tired of being let down by him. I just pray that he gets better and stronger and maybe then we can have the relationship that we have been working on for the past 14 months. If that didnt make sense just blame it on my wondering mind.

Until....

Labels: Journey To A Better Me