Dysfunctionally_Functioning

It's been awhile and I really don't know where to begin. I made it through the fast... Praise God! The funny thing is I haven't been able to go back to my regular diet and I am thinking about going back on the fast. Yeah I know a lil crazy but the harder you make it on yourself the easier it is for God to show up and show out ( or at least I hear :-] ).Other than that I can say that I am tired, but I can also say that I am in transition. Transition more so because since the year has started my prayers have had the theme less of me and more of you. Translation: I am going after God with my whole heart. I want Him to be evident in my life. Let His light shine and my light dim. I have been praying for the things and people in my life that do not represent Him and His will be removed. In other words Be It Unto me. Whatever it is that is for me be it unto me. The problem with this is sometime you are not ready for the things you seek or ask. This is truly where faith comes in. The other problem is that people around you may not understand and look at you like youre crazy or have 6 heads. I've really been reevaluating my life and relationships. While I was on the fast I removed pretty much all "worldly" things from around me and only put in the Word. I can honestly say that my thinking has changed and so has my tolerance. Good, bad, indifferent...TBD. I'm excited yet ummm nervous about what is before me. Maybe because I can't see it. I'm not sure. The only thing I am sure of is my life isnt the same.

Labels: Journey To A Better Me