Dysfunctionally_Functioning

Ive been told that when all Hell breaks loose it means something good is coming your way. If that is true and is the be believed then I must have something MAJOR heading my way. I'm trying to hold back tears as I type this. What do you do when you're tired of crying but that's your only relief? You have no one to talk to because no one understands. The people that do understand you haven't had the pleasure of meeting. These past 2 weeks alone have been so draining that I felt it would take me out. It's like being alone in a crowded room. Even my posts look bi polar. One post I'm healing and doing fine the next I'm ready to ball up and cry. My fiance says I'm in a self imposed prison. Who do I run to? Just when I thought the storm lifted a tornado hit. I want more I try to do better. The harder I try to move forward and break free of these chains it seems like the more I'm bound. Days like today made me really want to throw in the towel. My dad said I need to sit down and figure out what I want and what I need to make it happen. Um....obviously you're not listening. That's how I ended up uprooting my life and trying to make things happen. *sigh* I don't know what to do. I think I just need to sleep. Maybe I'll wake and realize it was all just a dream.

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