Dysfunctionally_Functioning

I really have to get better at updating. So much has happened in the last 9 months its crazy. I am finally out of the middle of nowhere and back to life!!! Back to life back to reality. As crazy as life has been me and my inner circle have all been having our needs met and our dreams have been coming true. I have to say thank God for Jesus. He really is my saving grace. I made a decision that I felt was the best for me which was to finish my bachelors degree and I would have to move with or without the man. Of course he was not having that and we made plans to move together. Hes also been out of work since may so moving would be in the best for all involved. My bestest was married in Jamaica in Aug and it was beautiful. She was beautiful and so was the island. I had my passport for almost a year before using it and I am so glad I did. I will say to any and everyone that if you dont have a passport get one. Thats the first step. After that you will be more inclined to use it and set aside time and money. On Dec 30th the man proposed and tho it wasnt my dream proposal I am happy he did. I had it made up in my mind that if he didnt ask before I left there would be no us. Of course he will argue me down about this. he says women always mess things up by putting deadlines on things. In Jan my bestest found out she was pregnant and so did my best friend. As we are set to move we get a call saying that we need to get his daughter. Totally but all our plans in limbo. Not a bad thing just wish it would have happened differently. Shes not a bad kid but she is very sneaky. She has her dad wrapped around her fingers. im just thankful that I dont have to deal with her mama now that shes with us. That was almost the breaking point for me. I can deal with a lot of things but a ignorant baby mama isnt one of them. So with all that being said we packed up and moved 4 states away and I am in my last semester of school. Praise God!!!! Downside is Its a 4.5 hr drive one way. If we didnt have our daughter we would be able to do things a little different but Im willing to make the sacrifice. I think Im gonna stay near the school 3 nights a week and come home the other 4. While it will be expensive its still less expensive than me driving back and forth everyday. I know a lot of my friends and family dont understand and they think I can do better, all i can say is that in life we all make choices. THe key is to learn from them all. My life was altered 7 yrs ago in the same 2 cities that I find myself commuting from now. I feel as though this is going to bring me full circle and now my life can start a new. New year.new me.newbeginning

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