Dysfunctionally_Functioning

I go thru these moments where I am on the highest of highs and the lowest of lows. Some days I am sooo sensitive its ridiculous. Most would describe me as unemotioanl or nonchalant but thats far from the case. I learned at an early age no one really gives a damn so y give them the pleasure. I had a moment with my parents this a.m. that I really dont want to discuss but what actually brought on this current state is I was tryna explain what happened to a friend. Now don't get me wrong everyone has their moments. The difference with me is I try not to let that effect me. Meaning I always listen with a open mind. If I have something to say I say it but not in a way that makes it seem like I could totally care less or you just need to get over it. Well the person I was talking to today made me feel like that. I was feeling like damn I'm always here for you no matter how many times I have to here the same thing.Maybe I took it the wrong way idk. But I just feel like damn I always put myself out there for everyone else y cant someone do the same for me? This is where I could really use someone of the male sex in my life. Sometime you just need comforting arms or a warm bed. I feel so lost and alone right now.

This song totally describes me as of late

Labels: Random thoughts and feelings