Dysfunctionally_Functioning

Im counting down! My time here is finally up! After trying to find an escape I've finally got it. Picture it.... Morgan State University 2005... Its 2 weeks before graduation and ya girl finds out I'm not graduating. Now I've been battling alot these past few years especially from 2004 to the present. Most of which was my own doing. Back in '05 I was in what I like to call Luh it wasnt love it was luh. I spent sooooo much time loving someone else that I lost myself and stopped loving me in the process. I found out this nicca was engaged to someone else.( this is another entry by itself when I am up to dragging up those bad memories). This is totally not what you need to hear in your last semester of school. I spent all my energy and time focused on the dimise of my relationship and trying to function that I lost sight of what was important. (this is what I like to call the stupid woman syndrome. We've all been there. If not you then someone you know. If you havent stop reading and thank God right about.........NOW!) In the midst of it all I decided that instead of finishing my classes in the summer i would leave all together. Well we see how that worked out. Needless to say I couldn't see it then but its all so clear now. I'm glad I didnt marry that fool. He married ol gurl they gotta kid and basically theyre broke and homeless. God really do look out. But back to my escape. So I have been trying here and there to take classes and finish school to no end. After being on the plantation in Texas ( thats anutha story) I was thinkin about heading back to good ol Morgan and making it do what it do. The point hit home when my BFF Jill brought it to my attention after months of my agonizing over it in silence. So I decide what the hey. I reapply. Well things hadnt been really been looking up in my favor. Just when I thought I would reach my breaking point and quirk and end up in jail.... Viola! God/Jesus heard my cry. I'm out this joint and back in school to redo my last semester come Jan. Praise God! Hallelujah. I can see clearly now the rain is gone!

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