Dysfunctionally_Functioning

There are some things in life I just dont understand. I have never been one to really follow politics until 2006. It was at this time I enrolled in a poli sci class and begin to see things a little differently. Until this time I could only see politics as boring. I've voted in every election since I was able to vote but would only pay attention during the months leading up to the election. Of my immediate family I am the only one who votes in every election. As a matter of fact most of my family memebers though they are eligible to vote only voted in the last primary because now President B.H. Obama was running. I'm not knocking that because that was the case with a lot of voters who turned out to the 2008 election. What I dont understand is people who do not vote. I know there are ones who do not do so due to religious reasons and there are others who would like to and have had their rights revoked. I'm speaking on the ones that simply do nor. I have stressed this issue soo many times to different family and friends yet it has fallen on deaf ears. The one response I hear a lot is my vote dont count. Really? In my mind I think of the people who marched for this. The people who died for this very reason. There are times depending on who the person is that I let it go. You cant reason with ignorance. What about the ones who are college educated? The ones who are in their careers have been for years or in the military or currently in college? These are the ones that I have the hardest time understanding. It would seem to me that they would be more understanding of the plight of the country and the need to let their voices be heard. I know people who will not pick up a book to read but will vote in every election. I guess I wonder how can you be an advocate for change in so many other ways yet fail to see the importance of this one thing? I was fortunate to have people around me at different stages of my life that stressed certain things to me and instilled things of importance in me. Not to mention that fact that I've always been the one to stand up when everyone else sat down. I guess I wonder in a time when we have made so much progress how can we still have so far to go?

Labels: Random thoughts and feelings

I really have to get better at updating. So much has happened in the last 9 months its crazy. I am finally out of the middle of nowhere and back to life!!! Back to life back to reality. As crazy as life has been me and my inner circle have all been having our needs met and our dreams have been coming true. I have to say thank God for Jesus. He really is my saving grace. I made a decision that I felt was the best for me which was to finish my bachelors degree and I would have to move with or without the man. Of course he was not having that and we made plans to move together. Hes also been out of work since may so moving would be in the best for all involved. My bestest was married in Jamaica in Aug and it was beautiful. She was beautiful and so was the island. I had my passport for almost a year before using it and I am so glad I did. I will say to any and everyone that if you dont have a passport get one. Thats the first step. After that you will be more inclined to use it and set aside time and money. On Dec 30th the man proposed and tho it wasnt my dream proposal I am happy he did. I had it made up in my mind that if he didnt ask before I left there would be no us. Of course he will argue me down about this. he says women always mess things up by putting deadlines on things. In Jan my bestest found out she was pregnant and so did my best friend. As we are set to move we get a call saying that we need to get his daughter. Totally but all our plans in limbo. Not a bad thing just wish it would have happened differently. Shes not a bad kid but she is very sneaky. She has her dad wrapped around her fingers. im just thankful that I dont have to deal with her mama now that shes with us. That was almost the breaking point for me. I can deal with a lot of things but a ignorant baby mama isnt one of them. So with all that being said we packed up and moved 4 states away and I am in my last semester of school. Praise God!!!! Downside is Its a 4.5 hr drive one way. If we didnt have our daughter we would be able to do things a little different but Im willing to make the sacrifice. I think Im gonna stay near the school 3 nights a week and come home the other 4. While it will be expensive its still less expensive than me driving back and forth everyday. I know a lot of my friends and family dont understand and they think I can do better, all i can say is that in life we all make choices. THe key is to learn from them all. My life was altered 7 yrs ago in the same 2 cities that I find myself commuting from now. I feel as though this is going to bring me full circle and now my life can start a new. New year.new me.newbeginning

Labels: Journey To A Better Me