Dysfunctionally_Functioning

What do u do when u know u are being made a fool of but dont care? Theres a guy in my life that has me so gone its borderline insane. I think he might actually be torturing me and getting a kick out of it. We've all heard of the stupid woman syndrome which I hate yet I find myself here. Literally most days Im on auto. He consumes my every waking thought. As a matter of fact when I do sleep dreams of him wake me. Im losing my mind slowly everyday. He plays these BS games that has my patience thin but its not enough Im still hanging in there and I dont know why. I try to force myself to purge him and everything that reminds me of him but it only makes me want him more. AAAGGGHHHHH!!!! I dont kno what to do......








Mary J. Blige - A Dream Lyrics

Send “A Dream” Ringtone to Your Cell

A dream, a simple fantasy
That I wish was reality
That you came knocking at my door
And we relived this dream once more

Last night I dreamed that you were here with me
And we were in each other's arms
It was oh so heavenly
You held me close to you and whispered in my ear
Let's spend the night together
Sharing love beyond compare
Oh, as we danced to the melody
We had so much to share
And the music stopped
In a flash I was all alone
It was just a dream
Haunting me once again

A dream, a simple fantasy
That I wish was reality
That you came knocking at my door
And we relived this dream once more

The day you left
You said you would return
Just when you go and promise
That you need some time alone
You said you loved me and some day our love would be
I couldn't understand it
I thought we were both happy
As we danced to the melody
We had so much to share
And the music stopped
In a flash I was all alone
It was just a dream
Haunting me once again

Oh, a dream, a simple fantasy
That I wish was reality
That you came knocking at my door
And we relived this dream once more

Labels: Look Out Weekend

Its been a minute. I almost feel like a ho in church...so uncomfortable LOL. Funny thing is Ive been saying Im updating my blog and never get around to it. I should actually be studying rt now but Im taking a short break. Nothing much new around this way. I've finally started school which so far is going pretty good. Im still at moms :(. Everytime I try to make moves something happens so I figure God is telling me to stay still for a lil longer. Outside of that I am still losing my mind slowly day by day :). I havent seen a blog of any kind in months I almost feel as though I've been imprisoned with no contact to the outside world. If it wasnt for my cell allowing me to access facebook and google I would really be lost. I think I've been on Auto-pilot for the last week. If Im honest I'll say its mostly due to a man. Its almost like the song Sweet Dreams by Eurythmics. Sweet Dreams are made of this who am I to disagree I travelled the world and seven seas everybodys looking for something. I can see it but when I reach out for it....its farther away than I thought. Who knows maybe the r&r I plan to get this weekend will clear my head and get me back right.

Labels: Random thoughts and feelings