Dysfunctionally_Functioning

Its been a few fam whats good? I cant believe its 4:30 in the a.m and Im up with a bowl of frosted flakes blogging. Ive been saying Ill update tomorrow and hadnt gotten around to it. So I guess today is that tomorrow. Ive been declaring and decreeing that this is the best year ever and so far it has been. I mean I have had a few setbacks. My granddad passed away last month but I dealing with it. Im happy that he is not in pain anymore and I pray he is in a better place. My apt is starting to feel and look like home an school is good. Physics almost took me out but Thank God/Jesus I passed and its over. Still single but Im happy. Is there a such thing as happily single? I would love to be in a relationship but right now I have to be happy in spite of. I have spent too much time being unhappy. My whole life has been filled with misery, pain and unhappiness so I have decided that this is it. Its a wrap. Im gettin it in any way possible. Its not easy but sometime you have to pull yourself up and encourage yourself. Im going hard after God right now and HE has truly been my resting place. I guess this is what is meant by a mountaintop experience. I dont have a lot but what I have I am thankful for nd content. I've been getting blessing after blessing. In January I completed a 21 day fast no bread, meat or sweets. It was challenging but I drew soo close to God and saw Him in ways I never thought possible. It was an awesome experince. Sometimes we are our own worst enemy and we get in the way of our own happiness. Im learning that no matter what you have to make a conscious decision that no matter what comes my way I shall survive. You have to get it in however you can. No matter whats going on you have to find something to smile about. Theres something to thank God for even if its only Thank you Jesus I didnt punch so and so in the face and catch that charge :). Find something. I kno Im throwing a lot out there an jumping frm place to place but this is what happens at 0450. I still dont kno why I am awake. I really should be finishing all this homework I have and preparing for my exam on tuesday. Im about to call it a night/morning. Ive put food in my tummy watched Pastor Jamal and got some word for my soul maybe now I can rest. Thank God I dont have class or work today. Be blessed fam

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