Dysfunctionally_Functioning

Its been a long few days. So today is Christmas and I just polished off a bottle. Tryna polish off another. I cant say I am sad or depressed just know Im something. Who spends Christmas Eve and Christmas arguing? I DO!!! about what? The fuck if i know. My husbands crazy insecurities I guess. All I could do was look at him in disbelief, laugh and keep drinking. I will definitely be feeling this shit in the mornning. I love my husband but this shit is ri damn diculous. and this shit is for the birds. How can you marry someone but you dont trust them? I dont do shit, go anywhere or hang out with anyone. hell the few people I know here he dont like. This is bullshit. I try hard just to chill the most I do is go to the store use that as my me time. I can browse without being rushed chill and free my mind. Did I mention this is some bullshit? Im not use to this. You can only love someone so much. If you fucked up and dont think you deserve it thats your problem not miine. Why drag someone else in this bullshit? So since I am in hell Idk where I am I just gonna get fucked up with no excuses and no apologies

Happy Birthday Jesus and merry Christmas folks!! I hope it was a blessed one!